Am I ready to die?

Sunday. Yes. I woke up at 6am because I went to church. I got interested with the mass most especially the homily. Homily was when the priest will make sermons or will elaborate the meaning of the readings in the bible. I was shocked with what I heard from the priest. Of course it is the soul's day, so what am I expecting? Haist~ Still, his question was still in my head. You know what he asked? He asked us if we are ready to die. Am I ready to die? Am I willing to? He said that I shouldn't be afraid to die. Yeah. Bakit nga ba takot ang mga pips para mamatay? Eh ako? I actually wanted to escape from all the pain, the worries, the tears, and from the troubles. I wanted to rest. I wanted to really escape everything. I have a reason to die. I'm tired and all I want is to rest. But. I will miss the laughter, the happiness, the jokes, the teasing, and all the good things. I will miss my family, friends, classmates, teachers, even the not so close friends. I have a reason to live. I have a reason to die. Yes. Also a reason to live. Yes. But what weights more? What do I want? 

Think.

Think.

Think.

Think.

Ah! Of course! Why did I still have to think! Of course I wanted to live.

But. Bitin muna. I'll still upload why. 

:)) ✌️✌️