I wanted to experience prom in grade 9.
I wanted to experience taking AP lessons and exams.
I wanted to experience playing in tournaments for badminton.
I wanted to put more nail polish and nail art to my nails.
I wanted to have a grand and elegant debut with special people in my life. ❤️
I wanted to graduate when I'm in grade 12.
I wanted to go to Monash Univeristy or un UP Diliman.
I wanted to experience doing thesis. (Because they said it's hard)
I wanted to dye my hair all light brown.
I wanted to grow even if just like 1 foot. (Haha Asa)
I wanted to experience the 'real love'. ❤️
I wanted to experience break-ups. 💔
I wanted to experience living in a dormitory if I'm in college.
I wanted to experience riding an airplane.
I wanted to graduate from college and throw my graduation cap. 🎓
I wanted to experience taking and passing board exam.
I wanted to experience laughing so hard that I could die.
I wanted to travel around the world. ✈️
I wanted to experience attending reunions. (That would be filled with tears)
I wanted to experience crying so hard that I cannot breathe.
I wanted to experience having a good and happy career.
I wanted to find someone that would love me and will accept me truly and fully.
I wanted to get married someday. (I think that planning weddings will be the best for every girl)
I wanted to have a life. And I think that my life would be my new family. I'm not hoping or wishing for a happy life because I think that's imposible. I will not wish for it because I will just go with the flow of life, live with it, and just be me, and I think that would do to have a happy life. :)) Seeing my loved ones happy is one thing that could also make me happy. :))
And... Once I've done what I wanted and I think that I have no roles anymore then I think I would be ready. :)) Because I could no longer wish for anything anymore. I had what I wanted. :))
But... If the time comes that I would die, I will accept it fully. I have loved my life. Even if I haven't achieved what I wanted, I am already happy. I know that I'm not totally happy, but I'm okay with my life. And if I will die, I just wanted to have time to say sorry, thank you, and good bye to the people I've hurt, to the people who supported, guided, and loved me, and to the people I love, I wanted to tell good bye to them. Because I will miss them so much. :))
There! I told some of the things I wanted to still do that's why I don't wanna die yet. :))